Instructions:
1) List 15 things that you want to say to 15 people, but never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again 1) You will always be with me even if you arent here right now, I understand that I will see you again and I promise you that I will be the best person and child of God I can possibly be, not only for you but for myself and those around me so that one day I WILL be a person worth standing by and people will understand who I am and respect my true character... that, I do promise you.... 2) You might be my ****** but you still have hurt me so much. I understand you want the best for me but you never see to understand what influence you have. I have learned that a positive mental attitude produces the greatest results and you usually fill every bit of me with negativity, and I know you try your best but its time for me to take charge and take hold of the reigns Im the only one who accomplish my goals. So sit their watchign me fight my giants and win, because with God beside me who can sstand against me? 3)I love you, and one day I will free you, just be patient and stay for me. I dont want to lose you ever even if I might get angry at you. You are one of the only reasons I have left to accomplish my dreams. You are one of the few that put in me the need to pursue my dreams and the positive influenece to do it, when *** got taken away from us they were half my inspiration, but I knew they wanted me to perservere, so i will and I have those certain things I promised to you that I have to accomplish, so look at me with respect as I go upgainst those giants because I will need some cheerleaders when I get knocked down.... 4) I dont understand why you show so much disapproval of me? Is it because in many things that you have accomplished I have done better in or have succeeded where you fail, and you still look at me as an immature boy? I dont understand how you can say you love me but hurt me every single time I talk to you... worse then even number 3? I love you with all my heart but it gets tiresome layign my heart out only to get smashed and spit on 5) *this is to more then one person* You never hurt me bad, I jsut end up in these situations all too much in my life. I am sure God will supply all my needs it just hurts to keep tryign and get shot down each and every single time. But I will still get back up and i will still lend you my hand. What goods my intentions if I let one bit of rejection take away the care I have for you? So to each of you I leave some of my heart an I will keep doing so until I have no heart left and Only God shines through my soul. That heart was never mine in the first place, it was God's... so why would I keep it from those who deserve it? 6)I have known you the longest and even though we have our differences it is as if we are inseprable twins. If i were to lose you I would lose a thrid of me. To me you are a third of what represents what I stand for. What I wish to protect, and the reason that John 13:15 is my favorite verse: "Greater Love Hath No Man Than This, That He Lay Down His Life For His Friend" 7) I met you a year after the other but you are just as a psrt of me as he. Wthout you you see i would be uncomplete for you are the other third of me that stands for what I represent and stand for and also the reson for John 13:15 yet you are unique too, and I thank you for your advise because I knwo I will always need it. 8) One day we will retire together and we will be able to rive together in our sports cars listening to techno late at night... like how it used to be and how great that felt. I'll build it big and I know you will be there with me 9) this is to you kid. My heart jumps when I see you because I know that in you is the person I want to be with one day. You dont seem to get it and you construde it as if it were accident. But hun, God doesnt put in my heart something that he was against. i once was told by someone I looked up to to make a list of things I would want in the perfect girl for me so that I could stop worrying about when Id find and stop wastign my time on girls who werent what I want. And you know what beautiful? You fit that crieria so much then you will ever know. And I don't regret things but I feel saddened that things turned the way they did. You wont ever know how I truly feel because if I were to tell you ou wouldnt understand, nor would you believe me. But in the end I geuss I can't decide what will happen or what to do... its all up to you, I still have dreams to follow and I wanted you to be there with me but I geuss I have to find another copilot. So heres to you kid, Love ya, and the best for all you do. 10) You have been in my life longer then my closest friends and you have given me the amazing gift I so much appreciate and adore to this day, the gift that allows me to ease pain when it seems unbearable the gift to feel a feeeling most people will never feel in their lives... and I thank you for ou influenced me and guided me for three years and yet your influence guides me still today. I pray for the best for you and I know you will always Play that horn, just dont blow out your chops! ; ) 11) I love you girl, one day I'll be with you again and I'll make sure I treat you well andlove you ore then I did when you were ever here... I left you my sword cause that sword was part of me as you were. I knew you for a good 13 years and I will miss you, but I promise that I'll never forget you girl. I hope your having fun with Don up there. I'll be there when the time comes but for now... Ciao bella... 12) You made me laugh and made me so happy, I had to give you up once as well, but this time there was a choice, but it wasnt mine. I just I could feel those big pads you had for feet tacklin me once more. I wish I could hold ou close one more time, I wish I could have you here with me, but I hope you have a great life and live long. Serve well, cause one day I'll be calling for you up there too. 13) why is it always so hard when we look on the past? Why do I have to cry everytime I thnk of certain things? Why do I miss them all so much? Why? I know I understand but I wish someone would just make me see past my emotions, but I know that i can't.... all I want is to be happy... I geuss I'll be there someday. 14)I'll make you proud! I will fight with every once of strength and every fiber of being within me to accomplish the tasks God has given to me. I wont be a nobody when God needs somebodies, and I wont be a somebody when God needs a Champion. I'll be strong, courages, faithful, sincere, truthful, loving, caring, honorable and Ill make sure to hold God's name high! Im a warrior with a sword thats greater then any weapon that has and will EVER be conceieved. I have the greatest force in teh universe behind me and nothing that stands before me can come against me. I know I will fall amd I know I will be hurt. I know I will be afraid, but I will have courage, because courage isnt teh absence of fear, its the ability to move forward in spite of it. It is my time to prove my worth, my sword is almost done being sharpened and Im ready to hit some rocks! 15) you might read this and think Im a psycho or even think that im weird, but all i ever wanted to do is state who I am and what I have had on my heart for a long time and I geuss it came through the stupidest of medians but seemingly the most proficient. As you read, believe my words, I state them as fact because that is what they are and I will one day know what i need to know and have what I need to have... and one day... i will be happy.... | 
